"I'm NoT aNgRy YoU'rE nOt BaD-iTs JuSt TiMe!"

The other night I had a brave moment. Or a mad crazy moment, which ever way you look at it, maybe it was the red wine, anyway. I was discussing playing with hubby. Playing in general, not playing with him. I have been thinking about contacting my Ex Dom, to just play, because play was great, for some months now. Well. I just done it. Literally! in the moment...

So he might reject my offer. Who cares. If he does not want to play with me again, we was not meant to play again. My husband would prefer I play with Dom's I already know. He does not want me to go through meeting strangers again, especially as the majority of strangers I meet turn out to be someone I don't particularly want to play with then I have to politely decline their offer...

He does not go on line much. My Ex Dom, that is...so I might have to wait a few weeks to get a reply. Or he'll just ignore it, whatever. I'm a great believer in what is meant to be will be, but sometimes you do have to give it a shove in the right direction. "Here. I'm here". You know the sub you realised was the one, but at that time she was thinking..."I don't want casual, on occasion"...

I have always wanted quality over quantity, when it comes to play, I have never liked that feeling of 'Mediocre' 'going through the motions'. A mercy spanking as my then Dom called it. Now, well I just want good play, then if I don't hear from him from month to month. Fine, I'll treat him the same way, lol...{A booty call} but...Now I am going to sound conceited. Why, if our play is so good, do you need to fit so many other bottoms in...

Ohhh! Friendship & variety. Yeah! Right! I forgot about that...Though. To be honest. We was never actual friends. There was 'us' who had great, amazing, fantastic, wonderful, you name it,..play! & his fwends in Bs. Strange...Maybe I am not 'Fwend' material. Actually...Now I am going to sound like a right stuck up madam bint!


This is how I think it worked...For years we just had a one to one D/s relationship. Of course we chatted. Of course we had a friendship of sorts...but it was mainly about spanking. The spanking was 'The best!' I was...Probably still am...A spoiled sub. As in given lots of 'Mmmm!' spankings. We played every other week. I was in a constant state of tingly sexual arousal...

OMFG! It turned her on...God forbid! Spanking be classed as {Gasp!} 'Sexual!'...We also went to parties every other month. Parties were great. Because I had the best of both worlds. I had my Dom, who gave me amazing spankings twice a month, then all these Dom's/spankers at the parties. I played with lots of other Dom's. He played with lots of other fem subs. We gave each other space to play with other people...

The Dom's/spankers were respectful to my Dom, if they even knew he existed. Lets just say 'other' women, were not sooo respectful of me. If I was hugging & kissing them or not. I am not a hugging kissing type of person, I only hug & kiss people I love & feel close to. I'm strange that way. Or not, whatever way you look at it. I am a more reserved 'keep myself to myself' type of person, well, not unless I am blogging, lol...