I Love Being Spanked-It's All About The Pleasure From Pain-

Remember You Don't Need A Certain Number Of Fwends!

I wrote this in my private blog, but then I thought 'What the hell' Just blog it how I see it...

Be honest. Heck! I just want a 'Mmmm!' spanking which gives me 'LOTS!' of pleasure...

I'm an insatiable subbie looking for spanking, not a Domly Dom. Or 'Mentor' Or Mister role play

Uncle, head master, Daddy, or whoever...

I am looking for a 'spanking' Dom...

Confused? You will be, lol...

I got started on my Dom training blog posts. You never know, I might get to where I don't need his lordship for an amazing, fantastic, pleasurable spanking...& if I manage to train a few other spankers, that would be a bonus, lol...

Yes I really did just blog that in my public blog, lol...I'm too old for all this 'I'm a sub' Therefore I want the Dom to make all the effort. A little effort from the Dom of course, but, I'm not going to play with him if he can't fulfil my spankee desires...

Yeah. Topping from the bottom, but, I'm not a bottom, I don't do being 'Dommed!' being beneath some egotistical bloke. I'm in it for the sexual, sensual, erotic pleasure. Not to be punished or 'mentored' or trained to serve my Master as my Master's slave & therefore property...

I not a twue submissive...No...but...When I am playing, receiving a 'Mmmm! spanking...
then, apparently I am very submissive....

No. I am strictly into spanking for the pleasure of being spanked, because I love it. I don't love being used & abused, I can't be doing with bossy, arrogant Domly Dom's in it for the 'consensual abuse'. I am a quiet introvert, I am not a pathetic simpering door mat, in need of a Domly bloke to tell me how to think & live my life...

I'm sure many Twue Dom's wouldn't bother anyway, lol...Its like...You're going to punish me? How? By not spanking me? Because I enjoy being spanked too much for it to be punishment, sooo let's just enjoy the spanking for the mutual pleasure, cut the role play stuff...

Well. You can be in role in your head if that is what you want, but I won't be joining in, that said, my reactions to a real spanking are real, so you can forget I'm a woman squirming over your lap in ecstasy & pretend I'm a school girl, or whoever who is hating every embarrassing moment being punished by her whoever he is pretending to be...

It's like my {Ex} Dom used to say...My reactions were real, so he could get in role as my guardian, or headmaster, whoever...

Mind you. If my reactions were real, why did I need to be a schoolgirl, or promiscuous ward...& not just me...Ummm!

The thing is. Those blokes objectify women as just bottoms, as needing taking down a peg or two. Dr C was dumb enough to word his abusive attitude towards women in a comment on a thread, but there are other blokes out there who have that point of view. They are dangerous...

Dangerous to the vulnerable women with emotional insecurities...

Sometimes I think these people are so busy with their 'everyone' is lovely, like minded, special fwends in our 'wonderful' community, they are blinkered towards the bad emotionally destructive attitudes of some. Just ignore they exist & call it joking or role play. I am not submissive enough to accept that & just go with the lovely, like minded, special 'community' All hugging & kissing...

My goal
is to get what I want
out of my sub life...

I see 'fake'. I see smarmy. I see just wanting a freebie bottom to do with as I will, no strings, no fees, no effort, as a pro without spending any money. If I could forget that part & just make the effort to crawl arse, arse lick, be all smarmy 'fake, hugging & kissing. I would be one of them. They honestly believe that they are Rweal fwends...

Yep! I went there...

Of course there are genuine, decent people, I'd rather just be myself & make friends with the people who you can make friends with without, as I said 'Crawling up their arse'...I have come across people who are friendly from the start, because they are friendly people & I have come across people who give me 'Looks' & basically have no interest in me as a friend...I would have to do some serious crawling to be accepted by them...I just can't be arsed to perform for their approval...{Shrugs}

Yeah. Okay! The women get together, give each other attention, they talk about the blokes, all suffer from fibro. All suffer from depression. All call each other 'Hun!'...Then there is aspie me. Strong minded, sees through people, I am judging them, I can't get past their flaws to make the effort to be in with them...

Lol! It's true...As my husband say's. I am like no other woman, I neither give attention 

nor seek attention. I am just me. Independent, an individual, lacking in 'community' skills...

Yeah. I'd be friends with each & every one of them 'Individually' 'Independently' as themselves, I can understand what lies behind their attitude & actions...but all together as a group, as a clique, all competing for each other's attention...Nooo! Too overwhelming for me, too fake, too smarmy, too attention seeking, too judgy, gossipy, two faced...People as individuals are much nicer then people in groups who function enmass...