"Spanking"...If you can't stop thinking about it......

It's weird, but sometimes I feel that my only being into spanking is somehow 'tame'...naive when it comes to the BDSM peeps. The twue submissives, the slaves, the so called littles. the submissives looking for a Daddy Dom, Master, or the new bossy control bloke, with nooo strings 'Mentor'...

Why would I want a near stranger to be my uncle, a pervy one at that. I don't see my real uncles in that way, so a pretend one...Not my thing. The Daddy Dom gets me even more, I honestly don't get it. Maybe because I am looking at it in a vanilla 'too close to home' way..."Each to their own"...

As a sub, I don't want to feel owned, or given meaningless tasks, or trained to serve some Domly geezer. I will go to bed when I want to go to bed, because I am responsible for my own welfare. I will drink as much red wine as I want to drink when I want to drink it...

It's important to me
to find a Dom/spanker,
who can give me a real spanking,
for mutual 'adult' pleasure from spanking...
not a role play spanking...
You don't need to be my pretend Daddy, uncle,
disciplinarian...whoeveryouare...

Wear no knickers when I go out? WTF!..."***K off!"...You're going to punish me for what? Yeah! Right! mate. In your wildest dreams. I have been with a douchebag, who felt the need to wind me up until I reacted, then punish me for my reaction...Actually, that is considered 'emotional abuse' in the real world...

I say that I separate the two, that I keep my sub life separate from my life, but, in reality, as a sub 'Real life still applies' So I don't want to be disciplined, mentored, punished, I want to be given a real spanking, for pleasure, lots of pleasure, Mmmm! pleasure from very adult 'Sexual' 'sensual' 'erotic' pain...

Pretend I am a...Ummm! little?...Nooo! I am a grown woman, into being spanked as a woman, as myself. I find Domly geezers, who can't be arsed to find out that I am not into being a slave, school girl, age play...well, they irritate me. Its like they assume that we are all into being naughty little girls, or need to be disciplined by some disciplinarian...

Ohh! Yes...The tame spankee thing. I certainly don't see spanking as tame. I just don't need all the 'Young lady' 'naughty girl' thing. Because I am most definitely not a 'young' lady or a naughty girl, unless you call loving being spanked for sexual, sensual, erotic pleasure 'naughty'...

I suppose it comes down to labels. Don't label me, or put me into the 'all women are into X'...Not all women are into role play. Not all women want to be a school girl, or punished, or disciplined, or spoken down to, or spoken 'At!'...Or...given tasks, or trained, or controlled, or told how to live our life...

I don't 'Need!' to be spanked. I enjoy being spanked. I get pleasure from being spanked. I consider spanking as being spanked with more then just your hand over your knee, like a naughty young lady. Then there is the absolutely nooo! touching policy. Why are you spanking me then? Why are you spanking my bare bottom...Hmmm?

I don't want you to ***k my brains out...but stiff, jolty, avoiding touching me....Is...Well...Irritating! Just rub & squeeze my bottom already...Sheesh! I am not going to full in love with you & want to break your marriage up. I am married. I have been married for 24 years. I have no intention of fulling in love & WANTING! you. NEEDING! you...FFS!

Then there is the needing lots of attention. Daily attention...Nooo! I don't desperately 'NEED!' my Dom's attention, but a few emails in between, being treated like a close friend, because we are doing something so intimate. That is what I would like...In put...Not contact every so often, on occasion, when booking a 'free, no strings' appointment {Well that is what it can feel like}

How do you explain to someone what the balance is...Its not easy to explain...

Nuff said for now...